Why, of all the things she had done, was this the hardest? Why, of all the things she had done, did this bring her the most guilt? There was a heavy fear of rejection sitting in the pit of her gut, a thought that perhaps if she were pregnant, he would love her less. He would want her less. He would want all of them less. For she was just not her own being now, but one who carried many more souls. Lives.
Things to be responsible for.
Things to love.
Shiloh roused with her words, his familiar frame shifting in the dimly lit den. Half asleep, he would turn his gentle attentions toward her. The familiar stir of her heart fluttered, an unintentional and yet practiced smile forming on her lips as the love she felt for him warmed her core. She bit back words, the familiar sassy flirtations that wanted to dance across her tongue — she held them close this time, her smile faltering for a moment.
The bull would pull herself nearer, her heavy paws pressing with certainty in the snow-laden earth.
He would seem to process the difference in her motions and expression, his own frame stiffening with a heavy worry. He would mirror her, as he often would. They would challenge one another, over and over again. But this time ... Tiberii did not want a challenge. She wanted only to crawl into his embrace, to hear his soft whispers that it was fine. This was fine. They were fine.
"Tiberii? What's wrong?" It was enough to break her glass facade. The lion would pull himself upward, his cool blue eyes cornering her with his own worry, but leaving her a comfortable space. A space she did not want. The bull would close the gap, moving toward him and pressing her chest against his own. His familiar warmth flooded over her, and she would rest her neck against his own as she struggled in the silence for the words. The simple, but oh-so difficult, words.
Shiloh, I—
she steeled herself for whatever his reaction would be. Her voice, normally booming, would soften just for his own ears as the comfort of their shared den encompassed them. M'pregnant.
She didn't move her body, keeping it strategically placed against his own, closing her eyes as the words (the impossible words) seemed to echo damply in her mind.
The bull had yet even to have time to process how she felt about everything going on ... for she worried so much about everyone else. Shiloh. Her sisters. The whole of Dawnbreak. Her teeth pressed against each other, her tongue straining against the roof of her mouth as she battled the floodgate of hormones.
Oh, and the nausea.
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